FML October 23, 2010

I never fail to amaze myself- the level of self hatred I feel is overwhelming. I feel it from the moment I wake up until the moment I fall asleep. Fuck, I even dream about it. I am nothing. I am worthless. I am a fuck up. I am just a piece of shit stuck in God's shoe. I am almost constantly surrounded, yet I am always alone. Alone in my head, hating myself. Wishing I could die, but knowing that death would be too good for me. I don't deserve relief.